By Myself

An inspiration for singletons, like me. A song called อยู่คนเดียว (By Myself) by เบิร์ด ธงไชย (Bird Thongchai).

"I am by myself in the evening
And I don't see why I would need someone beside me
I am alone with the loneliness
I sit and watch the fading sunset as the sun disappears
I stare off and watch as the moon rises
When it's late like this, the best friend that I have is my side pillow
I'll be lonely like a person who has let go of everything
I've been like this for so long that I'm used to it

Those that don't know keep asking why I don't look for someone
One person
who understands
and whose love is real
Everything that has occurred is too much
Everyone
looks kind
looks sincere
Well, I'm willing to meet them
But, no no..no no no..

It's because when I love, my love is real
It becomes unbearable when you break up with me
I'll love someone a lot, so then I end up regretting it
It pains my heart, even telling someone doesn't help
Because I choose to love, I cause my own pain
So I'll continue to be someone who doesn't have a lover
I'd find someone else instead, but I'm scared it will just be a repeat
Because nowadays people are cruel
So they go out with each other as if its all just fun and games
So I'm always getting hurt
So I have to be by myself

Those that don't know keep asking why I don't look for someone
One person
who understands
and whose love is real
Everything that has occurred is too much
Everyone
looks kind
looks sincere
Well, I'm willing to meet them
But, no no..no no no..

It's because when I love, my love is real
It becomes unbearable when you break up with me
I'll love someone a lot, so then I end up regretting it
It pains my heart, even telling someone doesn't help
Because I choose to love, I cause my own pain
So I'll continue to be someone who doesn't have someone to love
I'd find someone else instead, but I'm scared it will just be a repeat
Because nowadays people are cruel
So they go out with each other as if its just all fun and games
So I'm always getting hurt
So I have to be by myself

It's because when I love, my love is real
It becomes unbearable when you break up with me
I'll love someone a lot, so then I end up regretting it
It pains my heart, even telling someone doesn't help
Because I choose to love, I cause my own pain
So I'll continue to be someone who doesn't have someone to love

I'd find someone else instead, but I'm scared it will just be a repeat
Because nowadays people are cruel
So they go out with each other as if its just all fun and games
So I'm always getting hurt
So I have to be by myself"

Ahhh... What a lie. As much as I wish I enjoyed being a singleton, I miss being with someone..